This is the lesson I learnt today, after so many days of unfaithfulness, which I don't even realize it myself.

Quote from the bible.com
"Dear Heavenly Father, I do thank you for Your goodness to me. Lord, help me to guard my mouth so that those things that are edifying and good will come out and not those things that contribute to a negative lifestyle. May I bless others with my tongue and never be guilty of cursing anyone. Let my words be gracious and may they bring healing to others. Let my words be kind and gentle and loving. May I reflect Your goodness in all that I do. Forgive me when I say the wrong things. Let me speak and pray the Word of God over my life and others. Give us all grace to say things that bring life into this world."

Yes, I thought it is ok to have said all the negative words to show how pathetic is my life and I complain for anything to gain sympathy, to be in the others by talking in their way.

I'm wrong. I always thought that what i said is actually not from my heart cuz I was not thinking the way I'm saying.
But I was wrong. The bible says that the things that come out of our mouths actually reveal the things that are in our hearts. We all occasionally speak things that we should not speak; however, the things that we speak in abundance are the things in our hearts.

Yes, time to check on myself - "what r u doin?"
Do every word I said bless ppl or just add-on frustration on them?
Do every word I said pleased God?

Yes i have not been thinking all these. And pathetically I came to realize these when bad things happen to me. I came to look upon Him only when troubles come.

All I can do is ask Him for forgiveness and grace to grant me the strength and the way. I would want to ask for a miracle, but everything is on His hand and He will give me what is best for me.
Thank you Father.