wah..it has been a long time since i wrote my last blog post..ehem...it's 3 years ago..wahah
u noe wat? i was laughing at my own blog wen i "reactivate" my blog again..
yup, cuz previously i've lost my account password and was soooo lazy to find out wat is it..
den my poor blog was been abandoned for such a long time..
anyway, y am i so amused by my blog?
seriously, I felt tat my english now is much more better than 3 years ago...though it's not tat GOOD now also..haha..jus take a look at the 1st line of previous blog..den u will noe wat's my standard compared to this...keke
yikes, crappy here..2 more days and my 1st finals in NUS will be over..
hmm, let me evaluate my own performance for tis sem...
1. sleep during class
2. dream during class
3. play during class
4. lazy to clarify my doubts on lectures
5. fail to do tutorial homework
6. too EN2 in hall CCAs
7. spend too much time in playing laptop
8. spend too much time hanging around
9. thought i was holidaying in NUS
10. didn't revise after every lecture
nah...it is never ending..frankly speaking my time table tis sem is damn free..
So it is so sad to do badly in my final!
watever..so i learn my lesson now..and i know the game of uni now.
but..thr's alot of things i need to improve..yikes..irritating..cant i be myself?
I was full of regretful now..and i'm a slow person, which means tat i cannot do things fast, i cannot think fast, and to produce a good performance i need a lot of time.
tat's y i can only prove my everything in my music.wahaha
piano diploma (performance) distinction, isn't it something i must be proud of?
of cuz..it's my hardwork..probably nobody noes..that i've spent 3 years of time preparing.
having lessons 3days per week during form 6 time, each day 3 hours. Holidays, nope, no holiday. Holidays is meant for other ppl. My holiday was piano lesson from monday to friday, from 8am to 1pm.scary huh?tat's y i can score something.
the essay to be handed up tat day has actually cost me a whole year writing and correcting..
so, i can say i deserve it.
BUt wat about my study here?everything is so fast in pace. thr's no such thing tat u can prepare one assignment using a whole year. 3 months, it's only the time for u to learn, digest and apply. Sure i cant follow. I'm not a genius, i'm not those ppl who are so clever and hardworking, who can catch up everything fast.
BUT I KNOW I STILL CAN DO IT
It;s hard, it's sufferring. I need to adjust my life pace, to the busy and quick pace in this world.
I felt dissappoint to myself, but wat i get today is expected. Luck does not work all the time.
I knew tat every good result is my hardwork but most importantly is given by God.
He wants me to learn, He doesnt want me be high up all the time.
We can only learn when we have nth.
Why are ppl nowadays do not believe in GOd? because they thought they hv everything.
They thought they can live very well without HIM..look at the world now. Ya it's true tat we hv everything, tat is so beneficial so advantageous for us. We live so well, thr's nth much to worry about in our live.
That's y God will take back something from us. We can only see HIM wen we've nth. Try to think about it. I admit that i only seek him wen i need to. It's really bad huh..this isn't wat He wants.
I'm grateful tat i experience something in my life now. and i noe failure is the road to success.
Thank you God, Father. =)
