Wednesday, September 28, 2005

suddenly feel like blogging...cuz ithink i'm moody ba...
hhaa..long time nvr online liao..long time din update liao..
hee..cuz..nth 2 write about..exam..wat can write..if i write, it'll only reminds me d thousand of ques i DUNNO how 2 Do! sob sob..
anyway,d subject tat i put most effort was jus disappoint me..
haha wat m i writing..anything la..tat mins i do my chemistry paper badly..!haih..d experiment..haih..dun say liao la..i cry 4 it le..
cuz my A1 fly away..
mayb u think i'm not zhi1 zu2..but i've spend almost ALL effort in tis sub le..walau..haih dun say liao..dunno how many As i can get tis time..i think relly die liao..
ok..dun care liao..exam over le..can relax a while..
mon went 2 do my ic, aftertat went 2 jail..
wow i relly kai1 yan3 jie4...act i felt pity wif d ppl who stay in jail..dunno y..jus vy sympathy them..wen i saw d jail they live in, esp d so called "rumah akhir" (forgt d name liao)..it is built 4 d criminals who r goin 2 b "gantung" till they die..
wen i saw d rope..i relly felt a chill over my body..suddenly feel tat those ppl r relly vy sympathetic..i was thinking tat wat were their feeling wen dey staying thr..waiting 2 die..so helpless..aih..
i think tat moment they ade realize their sin ba..dunno..many gan3 chu1..
nex me n wingee them went 2 wac d documentary of rotan..
c how d criminal being beaten..n den..their buts was lyk....yikess! d 1st beat their buts ade kai1 hua1..sum ppl even cried painfully..
they cudden escape s they deserve it..but..yikes..wat a cruel scene..haih..y d punishment all so cruel d..but if we think bac..tis is wat they get after they commit crime..aih..so fellow friens..dun even think 2 do bad things uh...blekk
today..was quite moody..cuz nvr tok wif him..mayb otherppl din realize or mayb they say anything dough they noe..
duno y..recently was a bit far from him..i was angry wif him..
but on d other hand..i cant bear 2 scold him..i only ask him 2 acc me more..
mon we went sing k in redbox..i din tell him..cuz i think he defnitely wont acc me lor..so i dun wan let myself disappoint..i din tell him..n den he noe liao..ask me y dun tell him..aih..
dunno wat'll he think of me?bad?witful?
he say wan2 listen me singing..so today decide 2 go sing k again..
who noes..he reject me again..he say wanna wait 4 nex tues..ok..i hv 2 disappoint again..so i totally fed up..dough mayb i seen ok..but my heart was bleeding..dunno y..
i dun understand..he said he wun disappoint me again, he say 'll stay wif me wen i need him..lying...LYING!!all is lying...!
nex tues vy special mer..?wan me acc him?i can reject d ok?
bday liao3 bu4 qi3 ah? hg!!!
u noe..act i not so care whether he wanna acc me or wat d..
but...till now...wenever he needs me, he cum n find me..wen i need him..wer is him?haih..i feel lost..i feel our distance..how..
i realize tis is d 1st time i write a lot bout me n him...cuz i relly beh tahan..i tot tis way of together is xing2 de tong1..but i couldn't...i still need him..esp wen jas ask me wer is him...n wen she say "y he owaz din acc u de?"
yes..he's owaz not with me..acc me..u noe..i relly wish he can lyk teko liddat..i owaz hope tat we can lyk other couple, can tok a lot, can owaz together..but evryone is different..
mayb he dun lyk..ok..he lyk games more den me..ok i admitt..
so i'm more rugi..i tot he said wan2 cherish out relationship s we dunno wat'll happen tomoro...
haih..i think i;ve write too long liao..thx a lot 2 those who lend ur eyes reading my blog here..chao.. :)