dunno y i am here...
i'm searching miracle...haa..
my mind is totally blank..
erm well...tat's a good sign..so i can read s much s possible n memorize all d books...
haa..wat a naive thinking...
i'm...lost...
wondering wat m i saying?
haha...me myself dunno it neither...
aimless life keep goin on...
study 4 exam...study study study..
dunno start from wen...i was unwilling 2 study..
start figure out d real meaning of study..
n wat i really wan2 do..
now i got a clear aim..my piano..diploma..
i love music...love 2 learn evrything about it...so courageos..
so adventurous..other den tat i dunno wat can i do..
i hate 2 study d facts..d words which is set nicely..dat we nid 2 follow it...
yeah i atmitt i like 2 follow my feelings..i dun care other ppl..
sumtimes passionate, sumtimes cold...tis is me..n..i dun really noe how 2 make friens..
4 a long time i owaz do wat i like, do wat i wan...
searching 4 my own happiness...without doubting any...dough sumtimes many decision i've struggled 4 a long time...
regret or not..2 me is no use...cuz things tat has happened..u cant change it..cant turn it bac...thr's no way bac...
i'm sorry 2 my friens...4 not goin 2 da trip...i was struggling...keep considering 4 a long time..
but i choose 2 search 4 my future...hope u all understand..
tat' vy important 2 me..n...i cant lose d chance..
i cannot waste d money tat my parents earn everyday 4 me...
i dun wan2 waste their hopes 2 me...
n sorry 2 my parents...i noe sumtimes i was rude...i was zhuai3..i was not understanding..i was cold...
i;m sorry...i noe evrytime i've hurt u...n i owaz follow wat i wan..
i din study well..din study wif 100% hardworking...
i'm sorry...i've been wasting all ur efforts...
i'll work harder n harder...
friens...u may wondering how am i now..
u hv questions in ur mind..but not dare 2 ask..rite??
i dunno or mayb u all juz dun care cuz during exam..
i seldom tell ppl bout my things..i think...
seldom share my things 2 ppl...
but sumtimes i really dun hv things 2 share wif..u noe...
my life was jus..too ordinary..evryday i was so wu2 you1 wu2 lu4...
although sumtimes 'll unhappy but a while den ok liao..
i owaz encourage myself..console myself..wenever i was upset..
so wen seeing u all again i was fine again...no point 2 tok bout sad things...
or mayb i'm jus 2 selfish..wanting 2 solve prob by myself..2 proud of myself?think too highly ? mayb..
now i'm a prsn who r seeking courage 2 carry on my way...carry on my life..
friens..if u see tis..do tell me 2 jia you..i nid ur courage..
2 face evrything...face evryone..face tis world..face d reality..
thx friens..luv u much..!muakks